Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in mandi's LiveJournal:

Friday, November 9th, 2001
10:09 am	Confused I know I haven't wrote in here in a while so i will have a lot to write about....July 10th I had a wreck I dropped a tire off the side of the road on wet pavement and lost control my car slid down an imbankment backwards and it through me in the back seat and i had to have 8 staples in my head. that the only thing i can remember from the summer that dramitically happened.Oh and I got a job at Mcdonalds in June. well Last night I was at work and my ex boyfriend came by to see me about 8 he stayed until I got off of work. In his own little ways he kept telling me cared about me. and he regrets breaking up with me. cause he knows that he broke up with me for a stupid reason and that he would like to get back together. well right now i'm really confused and I dont' knwo what to do anymore. I really care for him ALOT and I wanna get back together with him but im afraid that I will get hurt again. And I don't know how much more I can handle. My cousin told me just to stay friends with him right now meet up with him in town and stuff ride around to gether go out on dates with him just to see what would happen. I don't know if I should do that or not. cause I know if i do that then I will fall for him even harder and then I would get hurt again but I can't just keep building a wall up around me keeping him out of my life so i won't get hurt again. I just wish I knew what to do I'm so confused right now. he even stay til i got off of work and I didn't get off til 10. well i can't think of anything else to say so i'm gonna go now bye (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, November 17th, 2000
2:01 pm	Life My life has been rough lately but they always say its gotta get worse before it can get better. well Tina, amber, and amber aren't helping it any. but they will get their fair share soon. Right now i'm in springfield with my sister and cassandra. Tracy had to go to training all day so me and Cassandra are at her brothers house around 2:30 or so I'm going to go to where my sister is and Cassandra and her dad are going to go to Oklahoma for Thanksgiving. Her dad came to springfield to pick her up. then at 4 Tracy gets out of her meetings and me and her going to go shopping at the mall, coles, hobby lobby, and wal-mart if i can't find the hair dye i need. I just dyed my hair (tropic) burgendy. me and Tabitha did it. but we needed more then one box so we are going to get another one and go over the top of it because there were brown spots showing from the colo my hair was before we did it this color. but it is going to look really good once we get it all done. well i guess i better get going cause cassandra is almost done cleaning and they are bout ready to leave so they can take me over to where my sister is and i can wait on her. well i'm going to go bye for now and i will start writing more from now on this helps me get my mind of things Mandi (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 26th, 2000
12:13 am	me well school started already. the summer went by to fast i didn't do anything. but monday me tim and sandy went to west plains and got tim a ferrit he is so cute. but now he is mean cause the boys. school is cool i like all my classes and i only have one goof off class. thats choir and its really not a goof off class. i'm just trying to get all of my credits in now so i can goof off my junior and senior year. well me and cassie are back together. i just hope she don't hook back up with don cause if she does then i can't be with her. she can't love 2 people at once. well i don't have anything else to say (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 10th, 2000
12:53 am	life well today was another day made it through n i'm alive still. but fallin for someone and she has a g/f :((((((( why do i always fal for the girls with g/fs. I wish cassie was single she is so sweet but she has known her g/f for 9months i just don't know how long they been together. i think she is going to move in with her g/f. so there goes my chance. but i gotta stick with my promise i promised not to hook up with anyone that has a g/f or just got outta a long term relationship with a girl. lol cass just asked if iwas writing about her. i like her so much! but i'm going to give it a couple more days and see what happens with me and cory first. well i dun know what else to say but i'm outie nitee (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 6th, 2000
10:11 pm	days It has been days sense i wrote in this. I think the last time i wrote in it it was when amanda hurt me. well i have been hurt several times sense then well twice i should say. the first time the girl dated me and another girl at the same time. the second time the girl dumped me to go back to her ex g/f. oh well i have found someone even better now. she is so sweet and she doesn't rush into things thank god. i want something that is going to move slow. the past 2 relationships moved to fast especially the 2nd one. i think thats why it ended so fast. but anyway. other then that things have been goin pretty good. been babysitting trying to make a little money so i can get school clothes and stuff but thats about all. and spendin time with my cousin. well i'm off to bed now (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 15th, 2000
9:53 am	more more I love writing in this thing so i just keep writing more and more. Mom and dad are getting ready to leave and go to the river it will probably be 1 or 2 before my cousin gets here with the baby so i'll just sit around here and watch tv and play on the computer until then. but when she gets here i'll have to play with her and stuff. she is a great baby she never gives ya any problems at all. we are going to get to keep her next week probably cause we haven't got to see her that much so we told melissa that we wanted to keep her next week and she said that she would probably let us. so i can't wait. i think it will be a fun and good experince. I can't wait til me and amanda get to meet i think we will love each other even more when we get to meet. I just wish i could get up the nerve to tell my parents and everyone that i think i'm lesbian. cause now i really do. I didn't ever think that i could love a girl this much but i do. I love her alot. we have kinda talked about going to the dr. and getting pregnant. well in the furture that is there is NO WAY i'd do that right now. I want to have fun the rest of my teen years. and i want to spend them with amanda. that will be great. she is going to come and see me soon. we are trying to think of a good way we can go to west plains and go to the movies or something like that. I love her to death she is so sweet. well I guess i'll go now i have nothing else to say i don't think anyway. I just hope that Tammy doesn't stay here today i hope she goes on with shelia and them cause I want to spend time with McKinzie now. she was with her all week.. Tammy is McKinzie's aunt. and I can't stand her. she is a year younger then me. well i'm going to go now i think. as far as i know i can't think have anything else to say. so bye bye (Comment on this)
Monday, July 10th, 2000
7:08 pm	life I still cannot find john. I met a guy that lives in peirce city but doesn't know him. i think john really lived in monett cause 235 is a monett prefix. but anyway i have set here all day and bauled over john i have no way of getting ahold of him at all. if i had my license and money i would drive this whole freaking world searching for him. that is how much i love him. but if i had my license i would have never lost him i would be there with him where ever he is right now. well i can't talk much longer cause i'm getting ready to go over to samms. i think she was wanting to go spend time with john tonite but she said she was going to take rachel her steam cleaner back for all i know it is probably johns. i don't know how much longer i can take her lieing to me and shit i'm sick of it but i love her to death she is like my sister. it hurts ME too thinking that she is cheating on tim. and hurting her kids like that. sheleaves me there to take care of the kids and says that she is going to talk to rachel but she really goes over to johns. then the kids get up in the middle of the night looking for her. what am i supposed to tell them? I hate lieing to them to. i'm sick of all the lieing in my life right now it isn't funny. i'm sick of all the games and i'm sick of just about EVERYONE. i can only stand about 3 or 4 people that is in my life right now thats samm mom and dad sometimes my sister. well i should have said 4 or 5 cause alicia is there for me alot to. i think samm got mad at me when i went to spend time with alicia but i like spending time with my whole family. that is just about the only friends i have right now. is my mom and dad samm and alicia and tiff. tiff is like my sister and so is jessica but those are the only people that i consider my friends right now. i don't know why no one else around me likes me i have never done anything to hurt them or make them mad but i guess some peopl think i'm annoying. well i'm not i'm my own person and thats just me. i love to talk all the time but sometimes i talk about stupid things but EVERYONE does. oh well i guess its my fault everyone hates me but i don't care. that i guess i can live with and i will get over eventually. well i guess i better get going and get my clothes and shit together bye (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 8th, 2000
8:51 pm	just the rest of my day! well samm got done cleaning the house and she came and picked me and the boys up and we went down to the river for a little while and let the boys swim ryan is finally learning how to swim and its sooooooooooo cute. he doesn't think he can but i know he can. I got to teach him how to float yesterday at canebluff. and now he loves doing it. shawn is a little younger then ryan is and it is harder to teach him right now but he will learn eventually. samm had me come over here for the night cause she got april tonite. so she wanted me to come and help her take care of them. they have done nothing but give us trouble all night and we are hoping to find someone to take us to the river tomorrow so we can have some time to ourselves of peace and quiet and have a little fun. but she is afraid to hall the canoe in her truck cause last time she did it it dented in the top of the truck. so tim told her she couldn't do it anymore. well i guess i don't have much more to say but i just hope she isn't in a bad mood the rest of the night and i just wish she would quit cheating on tim to cause if she doesn't really love him i think she should leave him it isn't right for tim and the boys it is going to hurt them all WORSE alot worse in the long run. well i'm going now (Comment on this)
11:39 am	me well right now i just got my 2 little cousins for a few hours cause samm had to go clean a house they are so good when they are with me at my house but if i watch them at her house i can't get them to mind me for NOTHING well ryan will soemtimes if i'm over there but shawn never does if i'm over there. and you can't get them to mind for nothing when samm is around but most kids are like that when there parents are around you ca't get them to mind for nothing but anyway.. i went riding around with clint last night and i really like him alot i just want to talk to him ALONE just me and him but i doubt that will ever happen and i doubt me and him will ever date. i doubt that i will ever date anyone from this town there are 2 or 3 guys that i wouldn't mind dating but they won't date me. and i don't know why. well i guess i better go now bye for now (Comment on this)